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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member  Let There Be Light
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I know that I haven't been on here for a long while, I'm currently involved with chat rooms which can be fun. However, I had one experience where a guy switched on his webcam and showed me his "crown jewels" so I immediately blocked him and deleted him from my account. Some people on those chat rooms are very weird indeed!  I don't know if anyone else had got involved in these activities but believe me, some men are only after one thing.Thankfully though, I have a couple of people I can chat to who aren't weird like that and most of them are married. At least I'm safe, or am I  I was chatting to one married man and explained that I have a liking to Dr Who (not David Tennant) as it is the character I fancy. I wasn't sure if I told my partner that I like Dr Who but the person I was chatting to told me that he told his wife that he likes Shakira. He said that if she came round knocking on the door, he would run off with her. She responded to his answer by telling him that Shakira can have him. Of course this was only banter. I thought that I was the only one that had fantasies and felt guilty about having these, however, at least I'm not the only one. If I met Dr Who, I wouldn't be able to kiss him anyway, my devotion is with my partner and I have to recognise it for what it is, just a harmless fantasy. I did feel a bit guilty about this fantasy, however, I have been told that it is healthy for women/men to have fantasies about someone they think is really nice. I always thought that I am a pure  but it looks as though I have a  inside of me - hee hee.
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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It's been a while since I last posted my own thoughts but there has been so much happening, getting married, going on a honeymoon, etc. The day went well for the wedding, although it rained in the morning, the afternoon was dry which was great especially when the service was in the afternoon. Then, there was the BIG surprise. I wasn't expecting to go away for a honeymoon but whilst my husband and I were in the restaurant, he told me he had booked a holiday and that I would have to go home and pack that very night as we were leaving the next day. I didn't believe him at first but then I realised he wasn't joking and I was over-joyed. I can't believe how lucky I am to have found someone so loving and caring, I must have been doing something right in my life to pull in such a loving person. The honeymoon also went well, most days were dry with an odd shower here and there. Then, by the Wednesday, the sun started to shine and the clouds started to break. It was a lovely week. Well, the Scientology forum is going well and so far everyone has respected each other. I'm still posting out there for other Scientologists to join in which will be great. So I'm continuously letting other Scientologists know of this forum so that there is much more of a mix. I'm hoping that perhaps Scientologists who have done the upper levels of The Bridge will be able join in and participate with the forum. As for me, I'm hoping to try and raise more money as I really need it right now. I'm working out various ways to pull in more funds but I don't particularly want to go down the sales route. I couldn't sell as good as a real sales person, even if I tried.
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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Everything seems to be going well for me lately, I recently got in touch with my youngest brother who I hadn't seen for more than 10 years. I decided to call him one Sunday and he answered the phone, it was a stroke of luck because I had tried on previous occasions but no joy. Anyway, he came down yesterday (26 August) and saw me for a few hours on his own and my husband was out for the day anyway, so it was a personal thing for us both. My youngest brother had changed, he'd put on some weight but he was more at peace with himself. He wasn't withdrawn like he was the last time I met him and he was more sensible. He used to be in the RAF but left before his contract was due to come to an end for personal reasons. Hopefully I should be able to visit him where he lives very soon. I had a wonderful dream last night, I dreamt that the Ideal Org for Birmingham had been bought and I was walking around the luxurious surroundings. I had missed the start of the opening ceremony and had a bit of a moan with someone however the response was "We did call you several times to let you know". There were luxurious carpets, spiral staircases but I couldn't see any chandeliers. However, regardless of it being a dream, I know that it will be a reality very soon now.
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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My birthday celebrations went well with a visit to Burghley House. The house is much larger in size than I had anticipated and had beautiful luxurious rooms. I was a bit disappointed though because you only got to view one area of the house and there are many more rooms to see. However, you have to respect the family's wishes so I guess at least I got to see some of the house. There was also a fun garden feature for the children to run around in that wasn't a part of the feature for the house. The new feature had recently been added so that when adults bring their children, their children have somewhere safe to play and don't get bored easily. When driving from Birmingham to Stamford, it was attempting to rain but then later it brightened up and so it was very warm when my husband and I arrived. It was also interesting to learn that "Pride and Prejudice" as well as "The Davinci Code" had been filmed there. Only certain parts of the house was used so it added to the intrigue of the house. I enjoyed seeing "The Heaven Room" and then "The Hell Staircase" there was so much art on the walls and ceilings it was remarkable. Some of the bedrooms had art on the ceilings and a few rooms had art all over the walls and ceilings, it was a remarkable thing to see. Moving on, I was deeply moved by Frank's response to the help that I and other Scientologists have done to assist Hamza. I have printed off Frank's response and will be posting it in my local Org so that other Scientologists can view it. When a Scientologist receives a message of thanks from a non-Scientologist, it makes our work more worthwhile. I have already shown it to my husband and another Scientologist, both of them thought it was a good acknowledgment. I hope Hamza takes up on the offer of having assists as well as Joe's advice by reading the book "Self Analysis" and using the simple recall lists in that book. I think "Self Analysis" would help to stabilise Hamza a great deal. Finally, as to my progress with the new book "Dianetics", I have noticed how much happier I have become because I now understand more about the mind. I said to my husband "Is it me or am I much happier?". He did say that I seemed a lot happier and I think I am too.
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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Normally I'm going through life quite fine and doing well, but recently I have had a set back with work life. To try not to put it in a long and winding story, I'm going to try and be as concise as I can but as this is my own thoughts, then perhaps it may not be as concise as I want it. On Tuesday an email was sent around by the Partner of the firm where I work asking for any issues that need to be discussed as the general office meeting was taking place the next day (Wednesday). I sent an issue to the Partner via email and put in three people who were guilty of not abiding by office guidelines and confidentiality. The next day (Wednesday) an email was sent around to the whole office by the same Partner which included my email and unfortunately included the naming of names. When I saw the email which included the names I was absolutely dumbstruck and obviously, a staff member had a go at me about it. I did not attend the general office meeting and haven't made many friends because of the email. Today, I had a bout of depression, feeling upset and wanting to cry. I wanted to leave work because of this but felt that it would be better to confront it than waiting until after the weekend. Although I feel a bit brighter in myself, I'm still upset and frustrated that I am being attacked because the Partner did not use discretion when disclosing an email.  
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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I'm posting this today to vent off my anger, which a friend has already helped me vent off anyway. There is so much injustice in this world that quite often it's a wonder how people aren't acting as though they've been victimised! I've had two "bad days" at work, both of those days weren't one after the other but were apart and separate. Approximately 6 weeks ago, I was working for a solicitor who asked me to do the filing. I did what paperwork filing there was (albeit very little) and started to deal with something else. She then came to me and complained that I hadn't dealt with the filing and when I asked what filing (as I had already assumed I had done the paper filing), she pointed to a pile of files on the floor! She then said that she was sending an email to personnel in respect of my conduct! I then became really angry but also upset at the fact that the instructions I was given were unclear and I got the blame! Today, I had to let a couple of work men into the office as they needed to refurbish the air conditioning. They told me they needed the keys and as the person in charge of personnel was in a meeting, the work men said that if they saw the keys they would know what they looked like. So, I went over to the desk of the personnel lady and opened the top drawer to search for the keys. After much rummaging around, one of the secretaries (who is called Sandy and loves herself) told me that I shouldn't be doing that. I then got rather snappy with her and told her that the lady is in a meeting so what else was I supposed to do. Someone else then came over and dealt with the situation. Any way, later on the personnel lady said to me that she had been told by Sandy that I had been in her drawer. I told her that I had and she immediately told me off and said that I should have come to see her whilst in the meeting (sorry but I don't interrupt people in meetings). I then became more annoyed and asked her what should I have done and she said that I should have seen one of the partners - gee how the hell was I supposed to know! Anyway, all I was doing was trying to be helpful but instead I get told off - that's what I call injustice!
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helefra Forum-Blogger© Original500© Member Let There Be Light
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Well, this is an update from the last message I left on here and I'm hoping that it might go away, but I think this one will take a while. So, I went into work and the person who caused the upset yesterday said "Good morning" to me and I didn't answer. She then repeated herself and I still didn't answer. Sandy also said "Good morning" to me and I didn't answer. Again, she repeated herself and again I didn't answer her. I wanted them both to know that I am not on speaking terms with them for a while. Afterall, who wants to speak to someone who has caused you so much aggravation. After reading a majority of Dianetics I realise that the incident won't go away completely as it is a restimulation. I only wish I had some holiday left and I would have taken yesterday afternoon and today but I didn't so I had to confront it. I felt really angry yesterday and started to feel rather ill in myself. I was upset so much that I could have easily walked out. Anyway, I've been moaning too much here and I think the best thing to do is to try and move forward. At least that is what I am trying to do with looking for an alternative job. However, for now I feel like this 
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I have had a bad day yesterday (Friday 7 December 2007) in that I had a verbal warning which I feel was not warranted. Firstly, I was told off for changing some digital dictation from "normal" to "high", the dictation had been on the system for 4 or 5 days and I wanted to change it to assist the firm. I was therefore using my initiative but obviously I wasn't allowed to. Secondly, I was told off for leaving money around that I shouldn't have done, I told them that money was never left out in the open and was always sealed in an envelope and placed on the solicitor's desk. In fact one solicitor was sitting at her desk and I indicated the money to her. Lastly, I was told off for a trial bundle (this is a load of documents placed into a lever arch file to be submitted to the court as evidence) that didn't go out in time, considering that the copying took me longer than anticipated, I ended up staying until 5.30pm (I normally leave at 4.30pm) to ensure everything was ready to go out the next day. I was reprimanded for it not going out on the day it should have. Also, I am meeting with the managing partner and human resources manager every month - very strange when in actual fact I should be meeting with them once every year. So, you can say that I started out okay and now I'm going to be like this for the next few days:    
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Well, Christmas has now been over and done with and it is Boxing Day today. I always get bored staying in and was hoping to get out and walk around the shops, even for a bit of fresh air. You have to understand that living near a city, there isn't much in the way of fields or trees unless you drive for about 10 miles or more. I didn't get much for Christmas, not that I'm bothered as I didn't want much anyway but the fact that I was with my loved one was all that I needed.
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Well, I had a very nasty email from someone, I won't mention who, but no doubt it is something that will pass. I did mean to delete it but unfortunately, I clicked to open it, and as I suspected, it was an all-out attack and it looks like my observation of people are spot on. If this person had a gun and I was living next door to this person, then I'd probably be dead right now. I wonder why this person is so full of anger? In fact, why have I been attacked by this person to begin with? This person called me a "coward", quite interesting really. When I think about how many hours I have spent in the cold weather helping people, whether that's showing them a solution to their problem or giving them an assist, that is rather contradictory. On Sunday (23/12/2007) I spent 5 hours in the cold showing people help and giving others assists for any injuries they had. Only a coward would run or walk away from doing something as noble as that - just as a reminder, I did that for 5 hours in the cold weather - I wasn't forced to do it! Furthermore, I spent over 18 hours in the cold on Saturday (01/12/2007) and Sunday (02/12/2007) doing a similar thing and no, I wasn't forced to do that either! If someone looks at me as a coward because I won't fight, then turn on the TV and see the wars that go on today - that is a result of fighting, even if only on a small scale. Nobody wins in a fight, someone always gets hurt and even if the winner leaves victorious, they still bear the shame. So, to the person who sent me the email and is no doubt reading this, the only thing I would recommend you do is view this - click HERE
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I haven't heard any more from the individual as mentioned above, in fact I put myself on invisible mode. Not because of being scared, but I don't like confrontations with people who lose it at the drop of a hat, this is insanity in its severest form. I always tend to avoid these people because at the end of the day they are scared of something that they fear you may find out about them. To me, these types make our lives a misery and they are, what I would call, the adult version of a bully. Anyway, enough about what I have stated above, it's best to let sleeping dogs lie as the saying goes. There is a lady who was working for a solicitor in my present job who has been put on sick leave by the firm because of an incident that occurred. They are currently getting her assessed by a Psychiatrist as when she last had a breakdown, she picked up a pair of scissors and was twirling them around in her hands. However, all she was stating to whoever was with her is that she was afraid of dying - so why think that she would do anything with a pair of scissors when it seemed rather harmless?  I have a letter from a spiritualist offering to give me numbers to play in the lottery and that I would be guaranteed to win it. So I thought I would give it a go and if I did win, I will report it on here rather than letting everyone know on the forum. Should it work, I will give you all the spiritualist's address so you can all have a go, who knows you may become very rich! I'm now starting to move much faster doing my book courses on the Basics at the moment. Dianetics took me 6 months but that was because it was very slow reading and there were some words in there that caused me difficulty to clear up. Science of Survival is moving much faster now and hopefully I should get through it in approximately 2 months time.
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I was at a spiritualist fair the other day and decided to have my cards read. It was an interesting one and was told that in 6 months time someone will make it known to me that he likes me and always has and this person knows I'm married. I was also told that I have found the right path towards my spirituality (something I already know) and that it will continue. Also, in 3 months time I will have to handle a family situation, which I recall I had caused an upset with them and I think it was mainly my fault. I posted about my reading on another forum and someone instantly attacked it, I can't believe how evil some people can be. However, I did settle the situation and there has been no response since. What is it with people these days, anything that is posted which is good is attacked!!! Perhaps we should all give up reading the newspapers and then see how good the world can be. I often wonder how Hamster and Pinky are getting on and I believe they actually post elsewhere now but very rare.
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